It's something I've felt for awhile, but my dad is really unresponsive with a very high pride that isn't very necessary and totally uncool. Whenever we ask him questions just for a chat, I have to ask him at least three times until he answers with a really short yes or no. Whenever he does something bad to us, he ignores it and pretends like it never happens and refuses to say sorry even if it's something really small. He thinks if we sleep it off it will all just go away.

But what frustrates the MOST is he's only like this with us. When he's with his friends he's really happy all the time... very talkative... very sensible. It frustrates me how it feels like he cares more about what people think of him more than what he thinks his own family will think of him.

Since he is the "boss" of the house he can do whatever he wants and it doesn't matter. I hate this. I really hate this type of guy.

But I've seen this and lived with this for all my life that I think some of his habits came to rub off on me. It's so annoying and I hate it.

But I know my father works very hard for our family and that I can't do anything without him.

But it's just the way he controls us that frustrates me. We have to do everything HIS way. When I wanted to study hair he refused damn right saying I don't have what it takes when I didn't even give it a shot. And so I went to college and I wanted to go overseas to korea to teach english for one year (and it wouldn't even cost me a CENT and I would get paid) he said no because it's too dangerous and stupid.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I get so mad....

If i ever get married it will never be with someone like my dad.
It will be someone with a bright personality who speaks out their own thoughts but is thoughtful of others too.

Actually, today I was suppose to go out bowling with my friends. but I didn't have anything good to wear (all in laundry) and I didn't want to look stupid so I pretended  that I was busy. But right now I wish I went out anyways...